So today I broke a rule of mine and I weighed myself on my scale at home. It's not the first time I've broken that rule, but I try to stick to it whenever possible. But this morning I got on the scale before breakfast and au naturale and I had lost 6.5 pounds! So now I am down 60 pounds :) I can't tell you how wonderful that was to see. So I am definitely through the plateau.
All along I have had a worry about reaching the 200lb mark. In the past I have reached that weight and either plateaued and not been able to get past it or gotten past and then ballooned right back up. In the last couple weeks I've lost that fear. I've found that I'm understanding more of what I need to do and that knowledge has given me more confidence. This time I think I can get through it.
I had the goal of getting under 200 before going home over Christmas and I need to loose over 2pounds now to achieve that. Wish me luck!
I hope you're well-
Friday, December 3, 2010
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
ok, yes, probably wheat and nuts. maybe dairy.
So I've been really careful for the last few weeks. I took wheat out first. That was SO hard. I was definitely craving everything wheat that I could get my hands on. But I have to say, within a couple days the dark circles under my eyes were mostly gone. I also noticed that I felt calmer. I wasn't getting that anxious clench in my stomach that I get a lot.
But I was definitely trying to eat anything that I could, looking for something that would give me that wheat taste/flavor/whatever. Never found it.
After a couple weeks that need went away. But I still had some darkness around my eyes. So Mike told me to try taking out dairy. I took it out and I don't think that made a difference. I didn't notice any change in the eyes, the way I felt, anything.
I bought some beautiful hickory smoked almonds at the farmer's market- just so yummy- and I had those one day for my fats. 6 servings. The next morning when I woke up my eyes were all dark again. I was pretty angry about that. I love nuts as much as I love wheat, and here I seem to have an intolerance for that as well.
So I've taken out nuts and wheat and sometimes dairy. I'm eating dairy about every 2-3 days just because I'm not sure if I have an intolerance for it. I think I need to call my doctor and see if I can get tested for food allergies. But those tests don't always give accutrate results. So, who knows? Right now I'm judging by my eyes.
Anyways. I had a weigh in a couple weeks ago and It didn't go well. I hadn't seen Manuel in a month and I had been SO careful. I was really on point for what I was eating and I was on the mark with my exercise. I had really started noticing a lot of changes in my body shape and the way my clothes fit and then I stepped on the scale. In one month I had only lost 2.5 pounds. I was not happy.
Here I had been really, really good and that was the result. I felt like it had been a wasted month. I know in my head it wasn't wasted, but that's how it felt. I have Manuel and Mike for a very short time. A year seems like a long time, but it's really not. Manuel said that having been as on point as I was meant we could be certain that I was on a plateau. So he told me we'd pull back from 1600 to 1400 calories. He was going to wait till after Thanksgiving so I would have some flexibility on the holiday. I decided I didn't need the flexibility because I had cut out all the stuff that I would normally eat that would be the big calorie hits for me- No stuffing, no pie, no rolls- all have wheat. So I pulled myself back to 1400 Thanksgiving week. Tomorrow I have a weigh in. Let's see what happens.
Unfortunately this week I haven't been able to exercise at all this week because I've been really sick. I had a fever yesterday, I've been taking Mucinex to get my lungs clear, I've been exhausted. Today was the first day I stepped out of my apartment for any time at all. But walking back up the stairs- 2 1/2 flights- was exhausting. I've been really careful about my eating because of that.
I hope this weigh in is better. I don't see how it couldn't be better.
I'm worried about December's eating in some ways. There are so many Chanukah parties coming up (I missed one tnite because of this cold and I'm fine with that) and my birthday is Saturday and people want to take me out for my birthday.And when I go home to Texas there will be all sorts of possibilities for breaking my good habits. I have to figure out how to deal with all these things. I noticed that Manuel has posted some things about holiday party survival so I'll read through those.
So, to sum up, I've taken a lot of stuff out of my diet and It's affected the structure of my diet quite a bit. I definitely feel calmer than before and I'm totally fine now with the changes. It took some getting used to, but in the end I'm not as upset with it as I was when I thought about making the changes. There are a lot of challenges coming up and I need to find some tools to help me through them, but in the end I know it'll be fine. If I feel like things are getting out of control I can actually chose to opt out of all these things and be okay with that as well. I can totally chose not to eat any of it. But I'd like to find a way to have some of it if I can.
I hope you all are well.
But I was definitely trying to eat anything that I could, looking for something that would give me that wheat taste/flavor/whatever. Never found it.
After a couple weeks that need went away. But I still had some darkness around my eyes. So Mike told me to try taking out dairy. I took it out and I don't think that made a difference. I didn't notice any change in the eyes, the way I felt, anything.
I bought some beautiful hickory smoked almonds at the farmer's market- just so yummy- and I had those one day for my fats. 6 servings. The next morning when I woke up my eyes were all dark again. I was pretty angry about that. I love nuts as much as I love wheat, and here I seem to have an intolerance for that as well.
So I've taken out nuts and wheat and sometimes dairy. I'm eating dairy about every 2-3 days just because I'm not sure if I have an intolerance for it. I think I need to call my doctor and see if I can get tested for food allergies. But those tests don't always give accutrate results. So, who knows? Right now I'm judging by my eyes.
Anyways. I had a weigh in a couple weeks ago and It didn't go well. I hadn't seen Manuel in a month and I had been SO careful. I was really on point for what I was eating and I was on the mark with my exercise. I had really started noticing a lot of changes in my body shape and the way my clothes fit and then I stepped on the scale. In one month I had only lost 2.5 pounds. I was not happy.
Here I had been really, really good and that was the result. I felt like it had been a wasted month. I know in my head it wasn't wasted, but that's how it felt. I have Manuel and Mike for a very short time. A year seems like a long time, but it's really not. Manuel said that having been as on point as I was meant we could be certain that I was on a plateau. So he told me we'd pull back from 1600 to 1400 calories. He was going to wait till after Thanksgiving so I would have some flexibility on the holiday. I decided I didn't need the flexibility because I had cut out all the stuff that I would normally eat that would be the big calorie hits for me- No stuffing, no pie, no rolls- all have wheat. So I pulled myself back to 1400 Thanksgiving week. Tomorrow I have a weigh in. Let's see what happens.
Unfortunately this week I haven't been able to exercise at all this week because I've been really sick. I had a fever yesterday, I've been taking Mucinex to get my lungs clear, I've been exhausted. Today was the first day I stepped out of my apartment for any time at all. But walking back up the stairs- 2 1/2 flights- was exhausting. I've been really careful about my eating because of that.
I hope this weigh in is better. I don't see how it couldn't be better.
I'm worried about December's eating in some ways. There are so many Chanukah parties coming up (I missed one tnite because of this cold and I'm fine with that) and my birthday is Saturday and people want to take me out for my birthday.And when I go home to Texas there will be all sorts of possibilities for breaking my good habits. I have to figure out how to deal with all these things. I noticed that Manuel has posted some things about holiday party survival so I'll read through those.
So, to sum up, I've taken a lot of stuff out of my diet and It's affected the structure of my diet quite a bit. I definitely feel calmer than before and I'm totally fine now with the changes. It took some getting used to, but in the end I'm not as upset with it as I was when I thought about making the changes. There are a lot of challenges coming up and I need to find some tools to help me through them, but in the end I know it'll be fine. If I feel like things are getting out of control I can actually chose to opt out of all these things and be okay with that as well. I can totally chose not to eat any of it. But I'd like to find a way to have some of it if I can.
I hope you all are well.
Thursday, October 28, 2010
It's been a while...
The last few weeks have been SO busy. I've had classes 4 days a week and work in the lab 3 days a week. I feel like I've hardly had time to breathe. Our apartment is a mess, I haven't had a hot meal in weeks. I have been eating the basics- turkey, bell peppers, tomatoes, avocado, crackers, fruit. My exercise has been the basics as well- biking back and forth around town, workouts with Mike. I've been running on autopilot. I'm down to 209.4 pounds, which puts me at 52.2 pounds down.
My Saturday and Wednesday classes are over now and my Tuesday class ends next week. So I'm finally going to be back to a regular schedule. I can finally get some hot meals again. And rest some.
I finally tried on some clothes and got really upset because with all this weight loss I'm only down 1 waist size in pants and 1 size in shirts (and by some makers, not even 1 size). Apparently I am losing most slowly from my waist. I feel a bit like a Tim Burton character- little tiny legs, big belly. My body shape has definitely changed and I am definitely losing weight. No question about that. But the way I'm losing it is so disproportionate that I have no need to buy new clothes yet. I'm certainly not going to buy clothes for each waist size all the way down.
I think this is why so many people I know have not really mentioned that I'm smaller because I'm still in the same clothes. They can't really see that I've lost that much. In that way it's a bit disheartening.
So my therapist mentioned that maybe I have a wheat allergy. She said that food allergies can cause all sorts of things from anxiety to mood swings to depression to bloating and so on. She though maybe I'm bloating around the midsection and that's why I'm only one size down. I looked up information on it online. I certainly don't have any serious allergy to wheat because that would be Celiac's disease, which is as dangerous as peanut allergies, lethal. But apparently there is a wheat intolerance, which I may have. And maybe I have some milder version of an allergy, or I may be allergic to other foods.
I thought about it and my mother has many food allergies. I am tired all the time, no matter what. I'm just always tired. I have the dark circles around my eyes that come from allergies. I had always thought it was because I'm allergic to pet dander and dust, but I have no pets anymore and our place is not so dusty that I sneeze from dust anymore. My asthma doesn't react the way the doctors tell me asthma happens. A lot of the time I feel it in my throat, not my lungs. Maybe I'm allergic to something I eat.
So I talked with Manuel about it and he said if I want to try 6 weeks gluten free (6 weeks is the amount of time a body needs to clear something out of the system) I could do that and see what happens. He gave me a list of things to avoid. He said that anytime someone eats something so consistently (like everyday) for years they can gain an intolerance to it and their system then doesn't want it anymore. I eat wheat several times a day every day. I can't think of a day before I made this decision where I didn't eat wheat. I just can't think of a single one. And I am a bread addict. I love bread. Especially yeasty, dense, hot bread with huge gobs of butter on it. I could eat that quite happily every day. I have now replaced the bread and crackers with sweet potatoes, lentils, rice crackers, quinoa. We'll see how it goes.
But I can tell you that in the few days that I've been doing this (5 days so far) the dark circles under my eyes have lightened and I am not nearly anywhere close to as anxious about anything. I just haven't had the same physical reaction to stress. That's an interesting surprise to me.
Mike, my trainer, is very excited about the idea of going non-wheat and non-dairy. He says that about 80% of the white population has a gluten intolerance and he has been gluten and dairy free for a while, but every once in a while has a bread product and doesn't feel too well afterward. He would also prefer that I go off any processed foods. At the moment I don't see myself ever completely getting all wheat out of my diet. I really love donuts, bread and cakes, and crackers and cereal. I can find cereals without gluten for sure. bread is harder to find. And I wouldn't trust a gluten free donut.
So that's where I stand right now. I've passed the 50pd mark. I'm trying to see if I have an allergy. I'm hoping that, if I do, I will lose some waist sizes to bloating, but I'm not counting on it. If I don't lose some to bloating, we'll have to look at if there is some other thing I'm doing that's keeping my waist so close to its original size or if this is just how I lose weight right now.
I hope you all are well.
My Saturday and Wednesday classes are over now and my Tuesday class ends next week. So I'm finally going to be back to a regular schedule. I can finally get some hot meals again. And rest some.
I finally tried on some clothes and got really upset because with all this weight loss I'm only down 1 waist size in pants and 1 size in shirts (and by some makers, not even 1 size). Apparently I am losing most slowly from my waist. I feel a bit like a Tim Burton character- little tiny legs, big belly. My body shape has definitely changed and I am definitely losing weight. No question about that. But the way I'm losing it is so disproportionate that I have no need to buy new clothes yet. I'm certainly not going to buy clothes for each waist size all the way down.
I think this is why so many people I know have not really mentioned that I'm smaller because I'm still in the same clothes. They can't really see that I've lost that much. In that way it's a bit disheartening.
So my therapist mentioned that maybe I have a wheat allergy. She said that food allergies can cause all sorts of things from anxiety to mood swings to depression to bloating and so on. She though maybe I'm bloating around the midsection and that's why I'm only one size down. I looked up information on it online. I certainly don't have any serious allergy to wheat because that would be Celiac's disease, which is as dangerous as peanut allergies, lethal. But apparently there is a wheat intolerance, which I may have. And maybe I have some milder version of an allergy, or I may be allergic to other foods.
I thought about it and my mother has many food allergies. I am tired all the time, no matter what. I'm just always tired. I have the dark circles around my eyes that come from allergies. I had always thought it was because I'm allergic to pet dander and dust, but I have no pets anymore and our place is not so dusty that I sneeze from dust anymore. My asthma doesn't react the way the doctors tell me asthma happens. A lot of the time I feel it in my throat, not my lungs. Maybe I'm allergic to something I eat.
So I talked with Manuel about it and he said if I want to try 6 weeks gluten free (6 weeks is the amount of time a body needs to clear something out of the system) I could do that and see what happens. He gave me a list of things to avoid. He said that anytime someone eats something so consistently (like everyday) for years they can gain an intolerance to it and their system then doesn't want it anymore. I eat wheat several times a day every day. I can't think of a day before I made this decision where I didn't eat wheat. I just can't think of a single one. And I am a bread addict. I love bread. Especially yeasty, dense, hot bread with huge gobs of butter on it. I could eat that quite happily every day. I have now replaced the bread and crackers with sweet potatoes, lentils, rice crackers, quinoa. We'll see how it goes.
But I can tell you that in the few days that I've been doing this (5 days so far) the dark circles under my eyes have lightened and I am not nearly anywhere close to as anxious about anything. I just haven't had the same physical reaction to stress. That's an interesting surprise to me.
Mike, my trainer, is very excited about the idea of going non-wheat and non-dairy. He says that about 80% of the white population has a gluten intolerance and he has been gluten and dairy free for a while, but every once in a while has a bread product and doesn't feel too well afterward. He would also prefer that I go off any processed foods. At the moment I don't see myself ever completely getting all wheat out of my diet. I really love donuts, bread and cakes, and crackers and cereal. I can find cereals without gluten for sure. bread is harder to find. And I wouldn't trust a gluten free donut.
So that's where I stand right now. I've passed the 50pd mark. I'm trying to see if I have an allergy. I'm hoping that, if I do, I will lose some waist sizes to bloating, but I'm not counting on it. If I don't lose some to bloating, we'll have to look at if there is some other thing I'm doing that's keeping my waist so close to its original size or if this is just how I lose weight right now.
I hope you all are well.
Thursday, September 30, 2010
realizations
Hi Everone!
So I went home to see my brother's graduation (yay, Jason!) and while I was there I wanted to look for some photos I promised a friend I would post. I found out some stuff I hadn't remembered.
For as long as I can remember I have thought of myself as fat. I remember being told I was a heavy baby because I was 8 or 10 pounds when I was born. I remember being put on weight watchers as a child. I was the youngest one in the meetings, the only child. I remember my grandmother looking at me when I was a child and telling an aunt that she could tell I had lost some weight because you could, "see it in the neck. It looks smaller."
I've always thought of myself as having been fat my entire life. But when I was looking through these photos of me as a child I realized I wasn't always fat. I saw lots of photos of me and could see my collarbones. I could see my legs were thin and my neck was thin. I wasn't always fat.
And it made me realize that I could get back to being thin. That I was capable of actually being thin because I had been thin before. Which made me realize that I hadn't actually thought I was capable of doing this. I was trying as hard as I could but I would eventually fail, as I always did, because I can't lose it. How can I lose it if I'm a fat person? I have always said to myself, "Don't waste their time! Don't waste their time! You have to do as much as you can as fast as you can so you're not wasting their time!" Well, why would I be wasting their time unless they chose someone who couldn't do it?
It makes sense that I would initially think I couldn't actually lose the weight. Having tried and failed as many times as I have, how could that not be in the back of my mind? But I had no idea how deep it went. And no idea that it was really there until I saw those photos. It was a revelation to me.
Since then I have felt a calm I never felt before. I really, truly believe this will happen for me. I truly believe that I can actually reach my goal now.
I hope you're well!
Kelley
So I went home to see my brother's graduation (yay, Jason!) and while I was there I wanted to look for some photos I promised a friend I would post. I found out some stuff I hadn't remembered.
For as long as I can remember I have thought of myself as fat. I remember being told I was a heavy baby because I was 8 or 10 pounds when I was born. I remember being put on weight watchers as a child. I was the youngest one in the meetings, the only child. I remember my grandmother looking at me when I was a child and telling an aunt that she could tell I had lost some weight because you could, "see it in the neck. It looks smaller."
I've always thought of myself as having been fat my entire life. But when I was looking through these photos of me as a child I realized I wasn't always fat. I saw lots of photos of me and could see my collarbones. I could see my legs were thin and my neck was thin. I wasn't always fat.
And it made me realize that I could get back to being thin. That I was capable of actually being thin because I had been thin before. Which made me realize that I hadn't actually thought I was capable of doing this. I was trying as hard as I could but I would eventually fail, as I always did, because I can't lose it. How can I lose it if I'm a fat person? I have always said to myself, "Don't waste their time! Don't waste their time! You have to do as much as you can as fast as you can so you're not wasting their time!" Well, why would I be wasting their time unless they chose someone who couldn't do it?
It makes sense that I would initially think I couldn't actually lose the weight. Having tried and failed as many times as I have, how could that not be in the back of my mind? But I had no idea how deep it went. And no idea that it was really there until I saw those photos. It was a revelation to me.
Since then I have felt a calm I never felt before. I really, truly believe this will happen for me. I truly believe that I can actually reach my goal now.
I hope you're well!
Kelley
first exercise back
Hi Everybody!
After a couple weeks of trying not to sweat the doctor has told me that I can officially shower again. No more sponge baths! Yay!
I am still a bit sore every once in a while, but I was given the go to exercise and so I started back up. I went to the gym Friday, the day after the doctor said I was good to go. I did a very small amount of weight lifting to try things out. I did about 15 or 20 pounds on the cable machines and did every exercise I could think of on it. But only 1 set of each exercise. I promised myself that no matter whether I felt great I would only do one set of each. I didn't want to overwork myself by accident. After the weights I did 15 minutes of cardio on an elliptical machine. By the end of all that I was exhausted and felt like I could sit down. But I also felt good.
Then I had a workout with Mike on Monday. I felt like I had never worked out before in my life. I was so exhausted! He had me stop and rest about ever other exercise, but, still, at one point I got dizzy. He asked me to walk around and just breath deep until it passed. I was worn out like I've never been worn out before. But I felt great that day and the next. I had just the small bit of tightness that comes from working out muscles that haven't been worked in a while. And the day after the workout I had a follow up with a doctor who said everything looked great.
I've had a few sessions now with Mike and it's getting better, but I'm still not 100% I don't think. We're not doing really strenuous stuff yet, but we're doing enough and I'm burning the calories. And that's really the important part. Everything is getting back to normal.
And the spot is healing just fine. I have a checkup with my doctor soon and there shouldn't be any issue that I can think of. It all looks good. And I still lost 6 pounds while I couldn't exercise! That was surprising! It just goes to prove that it's more about what you put in your mouth than how much exercise you do. It's hard to accept that, seeing as how for as long as I can remember I've always pushed myself to exercise more and harder than the day before. I have to remind myself all the time that it's about the food. How much of what am I eating? That's the important thing.
Hope you're all well!
Kelley
After a couple weeks of trying not to sweat the doctor has told me that I can officially shower again. No more sponge baths! Yay!
I am still a bit sore every once in a while, but I was given the go to exercise and so I started back up. I went to the gym Friday, the day after the doctor said I was good to go. I did a very small amount of weight lifting to try things out. I did about 15 or 20 pounds on the cable machines and did every exercise I could think of on it. But only 1 set of each exercise. I promised myself that no matter whether I felt great I would only do one set of each. I didn't want to overwork myself by accident. After the weights I did 15 minutes of cardio on an elliptical machine. By the end of all that I was exhausted and felt like I could sit down. But I also felt good.
Then I had a workout with Mike on Monday. I felt like I had never worked out before in my life. I was so exhausted! He had me stop and rest about ever other exercise, but, still, at one point I got dizzy. He asked me to walk around and just breath deep until it passed. I was worn out like I've never been worn out before. But I felt great that day and the next. I had just the small bit of tightness that comes from working out muscles that haven't been worked in a while. And the day after the workout I had a follow up with a doctor who said everything looked great.
I've had a few sessions now with Mike and it's getting better, but I'm still not 100% I don't think. We're not doing really strenuous stuff yet, but we're doing enough and I'm burning the calories. And that's really the important part. Everything is getting back to normal.
And the spot is healing just fine. I have a checkup with my doctor soon and there shouldn't be any issue that I can think of. It all looks good. And I still lost 6 pounds while I couldn't exercise! That was surprising! It just goes to prove that it's more about what you put in your mouth than how much exercise you do. It's hard to accept that, seeing as how for as long as I can remember I've always pushed myself to exercise more and harder than the day before. I have to remind myself all the time that it's about the food. How much of what am I eating? That's the important thing.
Hope you're all well!
Kelley
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
injury :(
Hi Everyone!
So I had an epidermoid cyst on my back. It got infected and the infection would not clear up so my doctor removed the cyst. I've been on powerful antibiotics for 2 weeks now and have 3 more days to go of them. I haven't been able to exercise because I can't get the area dirty. So for the last week I've been keeping very strictly to my eating plan so I don't gain while I'm stuck doing almost nothing. This is a difficult task because when I get sick I want to eat everything in sight. Why can't I be one of those people who can't eat because they get nauseous? Oh well.
This definitely curtails the swimming for a while.
Mike keeps checking in on me to see when we can get started again, but no word from the Dr yet as to when that will be.
But I gotta say, I feel much better with the thing removed! And it is healing well. The nurses change the bandage every couple days and they say it's looking better and better. So overall it's good.
I will hopefully see Manuel on Friday. I'll let you know-
Kelley
So I had an epidermoid cyst on my back. It got infected and the infection would not clear up so my doctor removed the cyst. I've been on powerful antibiotics for 2 weeks now and have 3 more days to go of them. I haven't been able to exercise because I can't get the area dirty. So for the last week I've been keeping very strictly to my eating plan so I don't gain while I'm stuck doing almost nothing. This is a difficult task because when I get sick I want to eat everything in sight. Why can't I be one of those people who can't eat because they get nauseous? Oh well.
This definitely curtails the swimming for a while.
Mike keeps checking in on me to see when we can get started again, but no word from the Dr yet as to when that will be.
But I gotta say, I feel much better with the thing removed! And it is healing well. The nurses change the bandage every couple days and they say it's looking better and better. So overall it's good.
I will hopefully see Manuel on Friday. I'll let you know-
Kelley
Monday, August 23, 2010
back on track
Hi Everyone!
I feel like I'm really back on track the last week (even though I haven't been able to stop thinking about cake... I really want a piece of chocolate cake- interesting, well made with lots of frosting and fun stuff like hazel nuts or raspberries). I'm guessing I should just plan for it and get it because I haven't stopped thinking about it in a couple weeks. But I've been really good about making sure that I have all the basics around, like the turkey breast, crackers, avocados, etc. Having the right food around is crucial to me keeping on track. Whenever I don't have easy access to the right stuff, I always end up eating too much of the wrong stuff (yummy stuff, but not what I need to keep going in the right direction).
I've had a lump on my back for the last few years- the doctor told me it's an epidermoid cyst (so it's totally benign). As I'm loosing weight it's starting to hurt. Mike, my trainer, and I are guessing that as I'm loosing weight it has less cushioning around it and so it's starting to hit nerves and irritate the muscles. I'm going to have to see if there is anything that can be done about it. I'm hoping it won't have to be surgically removed. Or, if it does, I hope the surgery is very minor. I really don't want to be out of commission for a long time because of this lump.
I have been really mixing up my exercise. I'm swimming, riding a bike, doing weights with Mike, walking, and sometimes using cardio machines. So I'm hoping that I'm working as many muscle sets as I can. I'm hoping that I'm mixing it up enough
to keep the whole muscle confusion thing going (as I understand it, muscle confusion means making sure that the muscles aren't getting into too much of a routine and therefore not burning as much as they can burn). And I've been trying to spread my exercise throughout the day to help keep the metabolism going as long as possible. We'll see if it makes a difference.
So this week is just trucking along. Nothing big, nothing too terribly out of the ordinary. Just trying to keep on track. Amazing how much I've been thinking about having a few glasses of wine and a bunch of cake and a danish and whatever else would derail me. Once you eat sugar you crave sugar. I really have to stay determined.
I hope you're well! Talk to you again soon!
I feel like I'm really back on track the last week (even though I haven't been able to stop thinking about cake... I really want a piece of chocolate cake- interesting, well made with lots of frosting and fun stuff like hazel nuts or raspberries). I'm guessing I should just plan for it and get it because I haven't stopped thinking about it in a couple weeks. But I've been really good about making sure that I have all the basics around, like the turkey breast, crackers, avocados, etc. Having the right food around is crucial to me keeping on track. Whenever I don't have easy access to the right stuff, I always end up eating too much of the wrong stuff (yummy stuff, but not what I need to keep going in the right direction).
I've had a lump on my back for the last few years- the doctor told me it's an epidermoid cyst (so it's totally benign). As I'm loosing weight it's starting to hurt. Mike, my trainer, and I are guessing that as I'm loosing weight it has less cushioning around it and so it's starting to hit nerves and irritate the muscles. I'm going to have to see if there is anything that can be done about it. I'm hoping it won't have to be surgically removed. Or, if it does, I hope the surgery is very minor. I really don't want to be out of commission for a long time because of this lump.
I have been really mixing up my exercise. I'm swimming, riding a bike, doing weights with Mike, walking, and sometimes using cardio machines. So I'm hoping that I'm working as many muscle sets as I can. I'm hoping that I'm mixing it up enough
to keep the whole muscle confusion thing going (as I understand it, muscle confusion means making sure that the muscles aren't getting into too much of a routine and therefore not burning as much as they can burn). And I've been trying to spread my exercise throughout the day to help keep the metabolism going as long as possible. We'll see if it makes a difference.
So this week is just trucking along. Nothing big, nothing too terribly out of the ordinary. Just trying to keep on track. Amazing how much I've been thinking about having a few glasses of wine and a bunch of cake and a danish and whatever else would derail me. Once you eat sugar you crave sugar. I really have to stay determined.
I hope you're well! Talk to you again soon!
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